On days like today where my Vestibular Migraine side swipes me I have two choices.
1) get swept up in the frustration of it and let the pity train take over
2) remember that I’m one tough lady, ask for help, and just move slowly.
Today started as, what seemed to be, a great day. Other than my normal pain level of 3ish and the regular rocking ship feelings, I felt great. I was rested and was just well for the most part. My new well feelings. I was happy, bubbly and full of gratitude before noon. By the time I made it it to my Dr’s appointment, I’d somewhere hit a wall. I was disoriented, in severe pain and could not think clearly. I imagine that it had to do with our weather changes, lack of sleep, or maybe I ate something funny.
When I degraded so fast this morning, I quickly had to make arrangements to get myself safely home as driving no longer was an option. By the time I made it to my workshops I was frustrated and felt insanely sorry for myself. I lost another bit of freedom. Again I had to ask for help.
Within an hour at workshops, I emotionally felt much better again. Today’s topic was emotional fitness. It couldn’t have been timed better and just reminded me promptly that I need to breathe and if I can’t control how I’m feeling , I can though control how I’ll react and what I’ll do to ensure my safety.
This condition has made me anxious and it’s made me fearful. I fight every day with my spirituality, leaning hard onto my faith and trusting that there is lessons and that I’ll find my way just as I always have. What I’d like you to know is that even when life is scary and crazy and things aren’t our norm, there are always silver linings and something to be taken from the situation. Have faith. Remember we’re all in this together, and with love and our breath we can accomplish anything we can dream up.
Love , Pixie